15 2 / 2012
3am Alive.
I’ve been doing gigs since 2003. Coming home late or should i say early in the morning, having been used to riding a cab on my own past 12mn even 3am onwards.But never did i experience such fear that i had earlier.I’ve never been to 19East on my own.Everything was fine until i got to Bicutan. from there, i took a cab. 9:30pm. 10pm was the call time they gave me. So i told the cab driver “sa may east service road-19east”…i cannot say exactly what happened….but it’s almost an hour already and 19 East is nowhere in sight. I suddenly felt that extreme fear in me..lalo na’t yung dinadaanan namin nun puro damuhan nalang, wala na halos tao at ilaw man lang. I really began praying and begging for God’s help..what came to mind were those victims of rape and murder..and how they must have suffered a terrifying kind of death being in such a fearful state. I won’t go anymore into details but thank God i finally reached 19East. What would have cost me less than 20 pesos if i had taken a jeepney instead, summed up to almost 300.
Anyway..2:30am..got home safe and sound. Thanks to tita celeste (Freestyle’s manager) for dropping me off at a safe place where i easily got a cab.
Never in my life have i been so thankful to just come home alive.
Thank you God for always being with me especially at times when I don’t feel your presence and in those moments when i feel extremely alone.
PS. And yes, as i was pondering over this..sometimes God does allow us to go through an experience and so we somehow end up knowing how others who go through or has been through the same thing must feel..thus, we’ll be able to pray for them with more compassion and love that comes from God’s own merciful heart. <3
