30 1 / 2012
Pre-dinner Jitter
What’s to come. A hint of that fear of the unknown lingering in my mind since 5pm this afternoon. It’s 7:15pm now. This situation stirring up so much emotion within me. On the one hand, i feel worried about not getting what i somehow desire. But on the other hand, i am worried about actually getting it because that would mean greater responsibility on my part-A moving out into the unknown, that launching into the deep sort of thing.. (nervous sigh)
I’ll take this to my journal further on later..for now, this room’s quite a mess and needs to be fixed. (Or am i just running away from the silent prayer time to be still and think things through) Hmm.. Later.
