29 1 / 2012
Around 3:15am earlier today.
This stabbing pain of emptiness. But maybe it isn’t really empty. But the feeling of being empty. Seeing the emptiness of things desired for what it really is. It is pain not because we have nothing but because we can’t see what we have and fail to understand the value behind everything that is being offered to us in the present moment; and how much of it is greater than what seems to have been lost in the past.
It is one thing to let go of the past. Another thing to receive the present.To open ourselves once again to accept what the present time has to offer. I can very much identify with littleness. And so when you fail to see the value of little things, i feel you do not recognize my worth. You do not see me..
I hope you will soon realize that what is being given to you NOW is greater than what seems to have been taken away from you THEN. And that you recognize the Great in what seems to be l i t t l e .
*Stabbing pain subsided after an hour; Went on to my brushes and finished two paintings. Slept at 6:30am.
